Dream Big, Darling
“Don’t quit your daydream”—this quote is fabulous and resonates with me so well. I’m a dreamer; like big time. Daydreaming is my jam. It keeps me going. If I wasn’t, it’s very unlikely I would be writing this right now. It’s also a fun way to pass the time and fantasize about anything we want. Many times it may involve a lavish lifestyle we wish to live, a sexual fantasy, or maybe an exotic vacation. It can literally be anything. But, what if it’s a new career? What if you envision what your future might actually look like? What if it’s accompanied by a strong gut feeling as well? Is it still a dream?
Back in April, in the middle of this COVID mess, I told Nick that my career was over. His response was, “don’t say that”. But I had such a strong gut feeling about it. Day in and day out I would think about what my future was going to look like. None of the scenarios involved my current career; the one I’ve been in for a decade now. The only thing I’ve known. It felt weird. It felt different. I knew COVID wouldn’t last forever and things would eventually resume to some form of normal. But I didn’t know exactly what that “new normal” would entail. I still don’t.
In August, I was still unsure of what’s to come. What I did know however, was that I woke up every day with an undeniable passion for writing, for telling my story and trying to impact as many lives as I can. It brings me more joy and satisfaction than I’ve ever experienced in my life. I hate to use the cliche phrase of, “ I had an epiphany” but I’m not sure there’s a better way to explain my current journey.
I never dreamed of being an accomplished author but I’ve always had the desire to write a book. Over the years, I have written in a journal. Lots of personal accounts, various stories, quotes and little tidbits. But the words, they just lay on pages, untouched, hardly ever read. They have so much emotion, motivation and inspiration that I need to share with the world.
Lately I can’t get it out of my head; I want to write this book. It’s non-stop. Writing and publishing a book seems like an incredibly lofty feat, yet it feels like a realistic goal to me.
Is this all just a big dream? Or is there something more to this burning desire I have? I don’t know. What I do know is that I wake up at 5:00am every day—super early for me. I would not consider myself a morning person or an early bird, but I am becoming one. I wake up ready to tackle whatever the day brings. I usually have writing on my mind and I spend a lot time translating my thoughts into what I hope are valuable and worthwhile words. I am also working again. Woohoo! I finally regained my salaried status, after months of filling in various roles within the clinic; in hopes I would get to this point. Does this mean my career is back? Too early to tell.
When I’m working, I’m thinking about writing. When I’m writing, I’m thinking about my next story. When I’m reading, I’m getting inspiration—for my writing. Everything brings me back to my dream. I don’t know where it’s headed, but wherever it goes, I’m all in. I can’t ignore it. Maybe you’ll hear about a book in a few years.
I tried to talk myself out of my own dream? Crazy, right? But we all do it. All. The. Time. Why? When you can’t get something out of your head, it’s time to answer that calling. If it’s a big dream, don’t ignore it! I think I’m discovering that my dream is my passion. My purpose. I won’t stop until my passion and purpose complete my dream!
Dream Big, Darling! Don’t let anyone tell you no. Don’t let anyone stand in your way. Keep chasing your dream until it becomes your reality.
“But girl, don’t let your dreams be dreams.”