A Look Back
Back in the fall I got into a car accident traveling to my teams football game. It happens. It was super unfortunate. But I was ok.
The questions and comments came flooding in as they typically do—everyone wanted to weigh in.
“I can’t believe you still went to your game” “Why did you still go to work?”
“Wow, you’re really dedicated”
Let me start by saying—I don’t have to justify anything I do or say. I live with every decision I make—good or bad. And I’m ok with that. I am unapologetically ME! That being said, I’m going to allow you into my thoughts that Friday afternoon. Good luck!
Yes, I was in a terrifying accident on my way to work. Yes, I chose to continue the 2 hour drive to be with my team after that traumatic event. Why? Why not just go home? After all, I was pretty shaken up. Who wouldn’t be?
Letting fear win was not an option for me! It’s never an option for me, if I can control it. After I realized I was ok, the only thing I could think of was making it to my football game. I was determined! I even called my coach and said, “Hey coach, I was in an accident and I will probably be late to the game”. It never crossed my mind not to go.
The other piece of it hits a little harder. I have a deep passion for helping others any way I can, but especially as an athletic trainer. At the accident scene, I was selfish.
Let me explain—In the back of my Jeep was an AED and other life saving equipment. It’s how I travel, almost always. But it was as if I suddenly forgot what I did and what I had with me. I never got out to check on anyone, even after I realized I was ok. Guys, there were 3 little kids in one of the vehicles. I felt like a horrible person!
After the knock on my window asking if I was ok, I was like, “OMG, why am I not the one asking this? This should be me. It’s what I do”. I’m going to blame it on the shock of the situation, because that’s so not like me. This ate at me. It still kind of does. Thankfully no one was seriously injured and in need of anything, but damn did I feel like I failed.
I needed to redeem myself. I needed to do what I do. I needed to be with my football team. What if one of my athletes needed me and I wasn’t there to help? I couldn’t let them down too. Although my mind wasn’t at the game, my physical presence was enough of a calm for me. It’s what Friday nights in the fall are to me. I needed that.
I’m not upset with any of the questioning. As a matter of fact, I’m grateful so many people reached out and were concerned for my safety and well-being. So, thank you, again!
In closing—Never question decisions others make. They are made with intention. Some saw mine as dedication to my profession and my kiddos, but I assure you, my determined mindset and tenacious attitude carry the weight! I can promise you that.
I don’t regret my decision. I would do it again. Hopefully skipping the accident part though. That was pretty horrible. Don’t try it at home!